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And the holidays are over, I'm having lots of mixed feelings about school. I want to go back and yet I don't. School means a loss of freedom and yet means being able to see your friends again. I've been totally wasting my holiday away with just totally slacking my dumb self almost everyday. But the holidays have been okay, not as bad as I expected. I went out more, I caught up more with old friends, I caught more movies and I did more meaningful things I hope.
I just hope school won't be so bad. And that I'll be able to revert back to the life I used to have when there was school. Most importantly, I have to get rid of my sleeping problem. I can't not sleep during school days la, I'm used to sleeping at like 5 plus 6 during the holidays and now that school requires me to be up at 6, I don't think I'll be able to revert back so fast. Unless I'm really drained, which I hope so. Like today, fell sick with a very bad sore throat on Wednesday or something, self-medicated and I'm okay now I guess. Came down with the flu two days ago and I'm self-medicating again and it's getting better. I haven't been so drained in a long time, today was just tiring I guess. Up at 8 to get ready for Church as I was on duty, been on duty for the past two weeks, last week and this week and am on duty this coming Sunday too, reached church at 8:35, waited for Pastor Lai, got the keys from Auntie Carol instead and then set up and run through with the rest, I would agree to a certain extent that Uncle Kim Meng was being very demanding but it's only cos he wants the best for all of us, though today I just wasn't in the right mood to accommodate his needs, cos I slept at 4 the night before and it was just 4hours of sleep and with a flu, not good. Haha. But I got through it and did pretty well I guess, he was satisfied. And though it was tiring, it was all for God and yea I was okay. I thought I wouldn't even be able to survive during BS cos I was so tired and just drifting in and out of sleep, even while walking. I need to look after myself more, HAHA. But yea, I try. A lot of stuff has been going through my mind during the holidays, so much that sometimes I feel so overwhelmed by everything that sometimes I just wanna go crazy one day and get it over and done with but life ain't so easy like that. And I've been drifting away from God, doubting him even sometimes, but he still spoke to me via the facbook app and I truly am sure that God is here for me cos of that one message and cos of the people around me that care. Just if you were interested, this is what the app from Facebook said,
"On this day of your life, Odelia, we believe God wants you to know... ... that doubt is the greatest gift, - it's the space between two certainties.
Any change on its way from one place of stability to the next one, passes through a period of doubt. Your old perspective has to disintegrate, and doubt comes in for a visit - even if only for a moment, before the new perspective takes root. Doubt is your greatest gift, because from doubt you can go anywhere."
It's called "God wants you to know..." and it gives you different messages everyday and it really does apply to my life often. So is doubt really bad for you? Idk, but I don't like people who doubt me, so yea. Trust is very important to me. And church has been good I guess, I enjoy the fellowship of the people around. (: Church refreshes me, even when I was practically dead today. I should go sleep soon, good luck to everyone for school tomorrow.
Well, I haven't been updating for eons, and I guess I should now since it's after all the holidays. The holidays have been just slacking for the past 3 weeks, and I must say that I must start on my work like asap. I've started already but let's just say it hasn't been very successful with all the procrastinating and the distractions around (If my parents read this, I'm like doomed-ed, which I am now). Yea I'm gonna start like over the weekend. Okay I'll go do some after this, since I won't be able to sleep anyway. Like finish bio though I don't wanna do. And start on the rest. OH YEA geog, articles, easy peasy :D The holidays have been filled with nothing much. Idk. The only highlights were Synod Youth Games Day, Yog Training, Back to KCP with Pam, Yanting and Jiamin, Hannah Montana Movie with Lin, Joan and Sabs, SS Project Meeting at Clarice's, Ghost of Girlfriend's Past with Joan, Janet and Clara. It's been a good holiday though. I really miss the clique though, like how we used to just talk etc during school and all the laughter, the joy, the tears, the sweat etc. Sounds so cliche but yea, I mean it. It just feels very comfortable with the clique, like I can truly be myself with the clique, without having to think much, I know I mentioned all these in the previous post but it's only because the clique matters so much to me now that I just keep mentioning it. Idk. I just miss everyone now. I miss Anjelica's crazy laughter and the way she never gets jokes but still laughs. I miss the way Cherie is so innocent and doesn't get what we're saying sometimes. I miss the way Clarice comes hugging me every morning and telling me that I'm her teddy and that I'm so huggable. I miss how me and Janet would talk about stuff during Chinese and get scolded by laoshi and how we'd always talk about _________. I miss how I get to whine to Joan and lean on her nice comfortable shoulder and how she complains after that about how I make her shorter. I miss how Linying goes crazy over David everytime he's mentioned and then tries all the time to Archie-fy us or whatever you call it. I miss how Sabby tells us to smile no matter what happens and her positive attitude to life. I just miss you guys so much. That's the only reason why I'm loooking forward to school. Sigh. Hm, what else can I look forward to for the rest of the holidays? Well, I guess Tabby's party sounds interesting and maybe the Church BBQ after that if Tabby lets us, and yea church has been great. Moses came to join us for service etc and it's been good (: Church has been good and yea. :)
Well, I guess I better end here then? I gotta go do some work. Till I update again :D
They take you by the hand and show you that you can, there are no boundaries.
And it's the end of yet another week! TGIF! Or wait, it's the last day of the semester and today was Founder's Day and it felt good. All the bounding etc. All the singing etc. It was good and I felt the IJ Spirit, all the ex IJ Girls coming back and talking about how we IJ Girls are special. And yea I guess we are, we give off a special aura? I don't know but yea. Today was good and the semester was good. (:
Well, after this term, I've gotten closer to my current clique and it's been really great. Angelica, Cherie, Clarice, Janet, Joan, Lin Ying, Sabrina. It's been really great and I guess it all started at Adventure Camp which really brought the whole class and everyone closer together. And with such awesome friends in class, I can really say that I'm starting to really enjoy school. I look forward to the next day right after the day's over. And it's with them that I truly feel happy, and it's been a long time since I felt this way. We can talk about anything with each other, even our deep dark secrets, about all the things happening with each other etc. And yet trust that neither will let out the secrets. It feels great la, too great. (: And I hope this'll last throughout the holidays :D Love you guys! (:
And I hope the holidays'll be good though I must say, I have almost nothing planned except YOG trainings and church stuff and outings with clique and gang and friends. (: And yea tuition, 2nd in class but 66.4 average. Doesn't work out, need to do better. Whee
And Kris Allen pwns, say it with me, Kris Allen's awesome, too bad he's married. Dang.
When I grow up, I wanna be famous, I wanna be a star.
Just got back from Malaysia and it's pretty cool to get back to one's roots and spend time with family (: The weekend was good, where we basically just sat around the house, spent time with my grandma and talked about stuff. My uncle's car broke down and we had to squeeze a bit but it was good (: And tomorrow it's back to school again where we're gonna have inter-class games where I hope we'll all get to bond and have fun together. (:
IJ Fiesta on Friday was good, though I had to leave early. The "business" from the IJ peepos on Monday was good and I heard that it was even better in the afternoon (: We earned a total of $3060 and it was great :D Much more than expected (: All the hard work didn't come to nought after all, pity I had to leave early, aw.
Well, I guess I'll finish here then, nothing much to say anymore anyhow (:
